But daddy, I don't know what I want to be when I grow up!

     I really need too look for a new job.  It's not just that I'm bored with my current one but I'm going nowhere with it.  I'm not moving up the ladder, I'm not learning anything new, at this point all I'm doing is wasting my time and I don't really know what to do about it.  The next time I get a job I really want it to be a good one, one that I want to stay at for the next 10 years.  A place where I can grow, move up the ladder, make good money.  And the thing is while I am completely aware of my time being wasted my father loves to remind me that I'm wasting my time every time I talk to him.

     Now I don't want you to think he's a mean or bad person.  It's actually quite the opposite.  I have one of the most loving and supportive dads out there.  All he wants to do is push me to my fullest potential and he knows that where I'm at now is not a good place for me career wise.  Could he be pushing me so much because he wants his daughter to make something of herself?  Yes.  Could he be pushing me so much because over the 4 years I was in college he spent over $100,000 on my tuition and living expenses.  I'm sure that's a big fat YES.  He has not asked me to pay back one cent of the education he has paid for.  I owe him something for that, I owe him a daughter with an amazing career.  So I can totally  see where he's coming from.  If I had spent that much on my kid I would hope they would be a surgeon or something by now.  

     I'm just kind of tired of being pushed to do something I'm not necessarily interested in.  I know I need things to change and I am working on it, slowly but surely I am trying to find my right path.  But it's hard to do when you have no idea what you want to be when you grow up!  I'm 25 years old though when will I figure it out??  Hopefully soon.  Honestly my goal is to have a new badass job by the new year.  That gives me a little over 2 months to figure it out.  Maybe I'll hit the internet tonight and start searching.  I can't work in that cube anymore, slowly rotting away (is that a little to intense?  lol)  

   I wish a job would just fall into my lap, lol.

stay tuned....